Day 2: Table and bottle service again right next to the DJ at Encore Beach Club. Dancing to Tiesto was probably one of the most fun times I’ve had in my life! Oh, and randomly went to Mark Cuban’s cabana. Then, XS at night! But I think what made that entire day so amazing was Earl’s. Twice.
May 19, 2012
Night 1 in Vegas: free table & bottle service at Marquee, directly across from Benny Benassi :) Thanks, Jennie and John!!!
May 18, 2012
Feeling Useless…
I ALWAYS feel useless when something bad happens to someone I know. Big or small. Somehow, I’m incapable of saying anything that would somehow help them or cheer them up. No words that comes out of my mouth is capable of comforting someone that I care about and I feel simply lost when trying to do so. I feel useless when I’m sitting with people, listening to them and their problems, and all I can do is say ‘yeahs’ and ‘uh-huhs’.
I want to believe what Job’s three friends did was right. Sitting there with Job and suffering with him. That my friend’s pains, sufferings, and heartaches are also my pains, sufferings, and heartaches. And I desperately want to believe that being there for my friends is enough, but somehow, I find myself in the opposite side of the spectrum: in disbelief.
This is one of the reasons why I believe pastoral ministry may not be right for me: I feel that I’m simply incapable of doing anything for anyone.
That’s totally not true, Thomas. Sometimes people need you to sit and suffer with them, to listen, and to be there for them even if they don’t flat out say it. Going into pastoral ministry doesn’t mean that you’re only called to give people biblical answers! Sometimes there is no answer to a complicated situation and the best thing you CAN do is say that “[your] pain, suffering, and heartache is also my pain, suffering, and heartache.” Coming from someone who always puts her foot in her mouth for being too quick to find a solution/answer, I can honestly say that being a good listener first is not a bad thing. I know your heart is in the right place and God will use you from there. Growth takes time and a lot of feeling incapable/incompetent, but you work through it with God and your community. You will do great works for Him, Thomas! And hey, if it makes you feel any better.. God uses our weaknesses as our strengths so lucky you. ;)
Work
Working out takes work.
Studying hard takes work.
Meal planning takes work.
Opening up your Bible takes work.
Forgiveness takes work.
Choosing to love takes work.
Taking care of yourself mentally, emotionally, and spiritually takes work.
Drawing good boundaries takes work.
Putting others first takes work.
Nothing in life worth having comes easy.
